Ch. 18：Fuck You, Hayden

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Goddess, I missed this is much. I missed being free to express myself and being confident while doing so. I couldn't stop myself from dancing and enjoying the moment when suddenly I saw a figure appearing next to me and felt a hand grab my wrist. I was dragged to a secluded dark corner and slammed hard against the wall so fast without giving me time to react.
Dammit, who would dare do this to me?! I was about to unleash my Alpha aura, but I was gagged, and whoever it was, they successfully stopped me from releasing my power.
I struggled, but then I caught a whiff of a familiar scent.
Hayden?
I struggled even harder. What did he think he was doing? Who did he think he was? How dare he stop me from having fun! How dare he manhandle me like this!
“I’m warning you, Charlotte. Don’t think you can live freely and happily without paying for the mistakes you’ve made just because you are the Alpha of the Moon Crest Pack, just because you have the backing of the Moon Crest Pack,” he snarled angrily.
Was he drunk? Why did he suddenly talk about my mistakes? But mistakes? What mistakes? The only mistake I’d ever made, and the worst at that, was that I fell in love with him.
“It must feel good for you to fool me for a whole three years. Concealing your identities, playing the weak, timid, and shy mate, and pretending to care and love me until I was used to it. Tell me, Charlotte. How good did it feel?” he asked coldly.
What the hell was he talking about?
“Tell me!” he roared and slammed his fist against the wall.
“Hayden, remember that we are no longer mates. I do not love you anymore,” I reminded him harshly and narrowed my eyes at him. “Now, I will be the one warning you. Do not ever pester me again in the future, or I’ll think that you are disrespecting the Moon Crest Pack. You would not want to see your pack, and mine go to war just because of your rudeness, would you?”
“Love?” he sneered. “Never say the word ‘love’ in front of me. You are insulting it. Your ‘love’ is disgusting. Your ‘love’ is to open your legs to any man, just as what you had shown and done, dancing like a slut on the stage!”
What the hell? Was there something wrong with his brain? He thought I would spread my legs to any man? Anger coursed through every vein in my body, and I flipped him the bird.
“Fuck you, Hayden. But yeah, you are right. I regret that I had only enjoyed your dick for the last three years without knowing the beauty of species diversity. Now I’m going to try more. I’m single and unmated, all thanks to you, and I am the only female Alpha in the whole world. I’m sure it’ll be easy for me to get any dick I want. After all, there are many more male werewolves who are more handsome and sexier than you.” Sarcasm dripped with every word I uttered.
“Don't you dare, Charlotte!” he roared, and I saw his eyes kept changing from his ink-black color to gold.
Did Rhett want to surface? Did my words hurt Rhett? But we were unmated. Could he still feel anything for me?
“Rhett is still obsessed with us,” Lexi said.
“You can feel him?” I asked in surprise. Usually, wolves who were not mates wouldn't be able to know each other’s feelings.
“I can't hear his voice anymore, but I can feel him, but...” Lexi herself sounded confused. “Not as strong as when we were still mates.“
Hmm... Maybe once we were mates, there would always still be a connection even after rejection and severing the matebond.
“Charlotte...” I heard Hayden’s warning voice, which snapped me back to the present.
“Why should I not dare? I am no one to you, and you are no one to me. You have insulted me repeatedly with the same words - that I’m a slut and that I will spread my legs for any man. I’ll do you the honor of making your words come true,” I sneered at him.
His eyes changed color again, but he quickly closed his eyes and punched the wall next to my head.
“Stop howling, Rhett. She is not our mate anymore. Stop obsessing over her,” he said through gritted teeth.
Was he fighting for control with Rhett?
“Rhett, he’s right. We are not mates anymore,” I said softly. I had nothing against Hayden’s wolf, Rhett. I knew he believed in us every time Sofia and Milla framed me. I knew he always tried to talk sense into Hayden. Lexi told me about it. Rhett always took our sides, and I was grateful for him. That was why I couldn't be cold toward him.
I saw Hayden’s body tremble for a moment, and he let out a soft whimper. I didn't know what he was thinking or why they were fighting, but I knew Rhett had taken control during that moment.
“Rhett is hurting,” Lexi said with concern.
“Why?” I asked her, not even intending to ask why she was still concerned about Rhett’s feelings.
“I guess because they imagined you fucking another man,” Lexi said softly with a hint of helplessness.
Now I felt terrible for Rhett. Hayden was the one who brought the subject up, and I was just saying that bullshit to provoke him.
I wanted to comfort Rhett but knew I couldn't and shouldn't. If I did, Hayden would have the upper hand, and he would insult me all over again.
When Hayden opened his eyes again, his eyes had turned bloodshot.
“You want to lie under another man and be fucked, Charlotte?” he asked harshly.
I was too tired of fighting with him, so I ignored his question, knowing whatever answer I provided would only lead to another argument.
“Is that it, Charlotte?” he apparently wouldn't let the matter go as he looked at me with his bloodshot eyes.
“Since you want to be fucked so much, then let me be the one who give it to you.”
Before I knew what was going on, I felt his lips covered mine.
I pushed him away and rubbed my lips with the back of my hand with disgust. “What the hell do you think you are doing, Hayden?” I glared at him.
My words seemed to fall on deaf ears as he looked at me with an angry yet hungry expression. It was like he had turned into a beast, ready to pounce and devour his prey, me.
Just as I had thought, his lips claimed mine again. I tried pushing him away again, but he caught my hands and pinned them above my head.
I struggled and tried to move my head sideways, but one of his hands cupped my jaws, disabling my head to move.
I bit his lips until I tasted blood to stop his kiss. He groaned but continued kissing me, and his kiss turned even more aggressive.
It was different than his other kisses. This felt more like he was punishing me. It wasn't a gentle or passionate kiss. It was hard and demanding. He even bit my lips back, making me gasped from the pain, and his tongue snaked into my mouth.
The force of his kiss made me feel slightly suffocated. No matter how much I struggled, it was useless. Even though I was a powerful Alpha, he was still a man, and I was just a woman, and there was still a difference between the power of males and females.
Just when I thought he would only kiss me to punish me, somehow, I felt his hand going south and ripping my skirt open.
I was aghast and struggled even harder when I felt his hand touching me through my panties, and the next thing I heard was the ripping sound of my panties.
My lower body was now exposed to him, but I wouldn't give him the satisfaction of being able to touch me.
I tried kicking him, but he caught my knee, and his legs went in between mine, making me unable to close my legs.
To my horror, I felt his fingers sliding through my slit before he shoved them forcefully into me. I winced from the pain of the sudden intrusion.
I felt humiliated, and tears started to pool in my eyes when suddenly I heard a voice growling Hayden’s name, and he was pushed away from me.