Ch. 26：A Complex Feeling

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I felt a sense of loss when Charlotte left with her Beta. There were just too many questions in my mind.
Why didn't I want her to leave? Why did I want to kiss her? Why did my cock get hard when her soft body was pressed against mine?
And the way her Beta called her intimately... Lottie... Had they fucked? Was he her new mate? That thought made me gloomy.
“Now you regret it,” Rhett mocked me with the exact words he had used many times.
I ignored him and walked back toward the Red Claw Pack, letting the cool breeze clear my mind.
When I reached home, I heard Milla conversing with my dad.
“Dad, I can't believe that bitch actually dared to humiliate me in front of so many important people. And the Alpha King was there, and he actually believed and defended her!” Milla complained.
“She has become more and more uncontrollable. We have to teach her a lesson! I don't believe Alpha Alrick actually has a daughter like her! Did he not know how to discipline his own daughter?” Dad said furiously.
“Dad, I don't think she’s Alpha Alrick’s daughter! If she were his daughter and the heiress of the Moon Crest Pack, he wouldn't let her embarrass the Moon Crest Pack! He would have taught her how to be elegant and classy! But look at what she had done all this time! She keeps behaving like a shrew! She’s very vicious and rude!” Milla kept insulting Charlotte.
“I think she’s just a rogue and a fake heiress! If not, we would have heard about her a long time ago. Why would Alpha Alrick hide her for so many years, making people think he only has a son if she’s really his daughter?” Dad let out his ridiculous thought.
“Dad, you are right! She must be Alpha Alrick’s sugar baby and not his heiress. After unmating with Hayden, she chose a more powerful Alpha, not caring if he’s way older than her. She must be doing this to get her revenge on us! She’s a really disgusting slut!” Milla agreed readily with my dad’s ridiculous conclusion.
I couldn't stand it anymore and stepped into the living room to stop them from slandering Charlotte.
“Dad, Milla! Did you hear what you were saying? If she’s not a real heiress, why would Alpha Alrick held a banquet especially to introduce her?” I pointed out.
“It must be because she seduced him and asked him to do it!” Milla stubbornly said.
“Enough, Milla! Do you think a powerful Alpha like Alpha Alrick would just give up his position to a mere mistress? It’s obvious that she’s his daughter! And you were the one who kept on creating troubles for her!” I reprimanded her.
Milla looked at me with disbelief. “Hayden, did you forget she was the one who pushed Sofia off the cliff and killed our brother’s baby? I can't believe you actually defended that murderer and didn't even care about Sofia anymore!” she yelled at me and ran away with angry tears streaming down her face while my dad glared at me.
I was too tired to deal with my dad, so I just turned around and returned to my room to clean up and sleep.
A few days later, while I was in my study dealing with my pack’s matter, Noah suddenly spoke up.
“Alpha, I heard from others that Milla has been looking for Wolfsbane, asking if anyone has it. Should we do something about it?”
Wolfsbane? Wolfsbane was a dangerous herb for werewolves. It could weaken a werewolf and even stop a werewolf’s healing ability.
I was confused about why she wanted it, but I told Noah to let her be.
Milla was just a rebellious immature teenager. I didn't think she would really use it to harm anyone. Maybe she wanted to use it to protect herself in case she got into a dangerous situation.
Furthermore, I couldn't care less about her now.
“I can't believe you actually defended that murderer and didn't even care about Sofia anymore!” Suddenly Milla’s words from a few days ago popped into my mind.
She was right. Even though Sofia had explained that she jumped off the cliff by herself because Charlotte provoked her, I still unconsciously distanced myself from her and didn't care much about her anymore.
My mind was now filled with only one person - Charlotte.
I’d been trying to contact Charlotte ever since she left with her Beta, but she blocked my number. I tried using Noah’s number, and she blocked it, too, once she knew it was me who called. I even brought out several new numbers only to meet the same end.
I went to her pack to see her several times, but the answer was always the same - she wasn't in the pack. I knew they were lying. She was in the pack but didn't want to see me. She asked her members to turn me away.
“Noah, how did it go when you went to the Moon Crest Pack and told them we want to collaborate with them?’ I asked indifferently.
“Alpha, as usual, they turned it down,” Noah replied earnestly.
Yeah, I even went as far as pretending to want to talk about collaborations between the two packs, and she still didn't want to see me.
It made me frustrated. I was the Alpha of the Red Claw Pack. Many werewolves wanted to see me and seek cooperation. But Charlotte... Charlotte ignored me and avoided with like I was a plague. I used every excuse just to see her, only to be refused each time.
For the first time in my life, I felt what it was like to be ignored, and it upset me.
Why... Why did she hate me so? I never did anything wrong to her except being indifferent toward her when we were mated, but I never mistreated her except during Sofia’s matter. I didn't think my action at that time was wrong. As an Alpha, I chose to defend who seemed like the victim.
She used to love me so much, so why did she change so fast? Did my action of asking her to kneel and apologize too much for her? But again, I wasn't wrong during that time. I didn't know the truth back then.
Why... Why couldn't I let her go even if we shared no more matebond? Why did I yearn and long for her?
Fuck, my feelings were inexplicably complex. I didn't know what to think now. I was never wrong. I should’ve hated her, but in my heart, I still couldn't let her go. What the heck was the matter with me? I shouldn't feel this way.
“That’s it for today,” I told Noah. It was late now. We could continue our discussions tomorrow.
I returned to my bedroom and took a shower, stepping out with only a towel wrapped around my waist when I finished.
I sat on the bed and could still smell the faint scent of Charlotte, and it drove me crazy.
I threw the towel and laid down on the bed. As for the past nights, my cock was hard as I smelled Charlotte’s lingering scent, and my lust couldn't be contained anymore.
I reached down to fist my cock, and a low growl sounded from my chest. I pumped my cock, alternating between short and fast strokes with long-drawn pumps.
Suddenly Charlotte materialized in my mind. She was naked and lying underneath me. Her face was flushed as I claimed her lips into a hot and demanding kiss.
My hand traveled to her nipple, rolling it gently, which drove her crazy, and I could smell the scent of her arousal. I pinched it harder, and she arched her back, moaning my name.
My lips left her and traveled down her jaw to her neck, finally capturing the hard bud on her breast. My hand and mouth moved in sync - sucking, licking, and rolling her nipples at the same time.
She began writhing, and her hips started to move, grinding her clit against my rock-hard rod.
My hand left her breast and went south, touching her slit. Fuck, she was so wet. She was always wet for me. My finger slid easily into her, and I began fingering her.
“Hayden, please...” she begged.
“Please what, Charlotte?” I wanted to hear her say the words.
“I need you inside me,” she said with a moan. Her flushed face and her swollen lips only made her more alluring.
I positioned my cock against her entrance and thrust deep into her in one swift stroke. I groaned as I felt her tight cunt clamped around my erection.
“Hayden!” she half-shouted, and her body trembled.
I started moving my hips, hitting her sweet spots repeatedly. It wasn't long before she wrapped her long slender legs around my hips, her fingers dug into my back, her back arched, and her wall tightened.
“Let go,” I whispered, and her orgasm made her pussy wall throb around my cock, sending a burst of sensation straight to my balls.
“Fuck, fuck, fuck.” I quickened the pace of my hand that was pumping my cock.
“Fuckkkkkk...” I groaned out when I finally spilled my seeds onto my hand and the bed.
I panted and whispered, “Oh, Lottie... What have you done to me?”