Ch. 23：I miss them

Chapter-19
ALEXIS’S POV
‘Eric, what the hell do you think you are doing?’ I mumbled, still sitting with Audrey, hoping that he will listen to my voice with his werewolf hearing and stop that useless abs flexing show of his.
Thankfully, he did listen to my voice amidst all this crowd because the next thing I know is him appearing by my side.
“Hey, now I know why you are studying at this University. People here are so much more fun than our pack.” He whispered in my ears, making me roll my eyes at him.
“I am glad that you can see why I prefer studying here, but that doesn’t answer the question that I asked. What are you doing here? I am sure Mark didn’t mention anything about going and protecting Alexis at her university, where a member of the strongest pack in the world is playing the role of the teacher, which I must add will blow my cover more than it already has.” I hissed, making Eric widen his eyes.
“Are you serious? They are going to that extent just to know more about you? Just what else are you hiding, Alexis?” Eric asked. And I was about to answer more when the sound of clearing of the throat made me look up, and I looked at my friends, who were looking at us with squinted brows.
“What are you guys whispering about? It’s like you are some secret agents that are planning the next big mission to save the country.” Matt was the first one to comment.
“Oh, nothing. I was just asking Eric what was he doing here? And how did he even found us on this big campus in the first place?” I said, smiling through my teeth while looking at Eric for him to act along.
“Well, I sniffed your alluring scent, of course,” Eric answered, making me look at him, surprised.
Was this man crazy? I am sure that if he stays around me on this campus, then it won’t be long before Blake will figure out everything. Everything starting from how I wasn’t only a Lantern but also a rogue. And a wanted one at that.
“Hahaha… this guy’s sense of humor is really epic. I am sorry, Alexis. It was me who gave him the address and everything. We had shared our numbers last night. Well, it was his idea, so don’t look at me like that. This way, I will be able to contact him when you are in trouble or something like that.” Matt said, looking at me awkwardly, and though I was feeling a bit offended, knowing that he only meant well, I didn’t say anything.
“It’s okay. Just don’t come here uninformed from next time. I am sure you wanted to say something.” I asked Eric, who just shook his head while motioning his eyes to others. A clear sign that he didn’t want to talk about it in front of others.
“I will meet and talk to you when I get back home. Yeah?” I said, making him nod before he picked my sandwich and took a large chunk from it.
Smiling at him while shaking my head, knowing all too well that he won’t listen to me even if I ask him to leave my food alone, I just sighed before getting engaged in the conversation with Audrey and Shane, who were talking something about their love taking another step soon.
“What do you think about it, Lex?” Shane asked me, bringing me out of my thoughts.
“About what exactly?” I asked, smiling at them apologetically for not listening.
“About meeting our parents? I am super confused about this. Should I wait till graduation or start making a move already. On one side, I think that I should do it after graduation so that our parents think that we are matured enough to take our own decisions, but on the other hand, I think that I should go and meet them now. In case they deny, I will be able to make arrangements accordingly to get them to agree to it in these two years.” Shane said, making me nod my head at them.
“Honestly, I don’t know. Never had a boyfriend who would’ve made me experience this.” I laughed, making both of them chuckle at my answer.
“On a serious note, Alexis. What would you have done if it was you? How do you think your parents will react if you tell them something like that?” Shane asked, and my smile in place.
What would they’ve done? Would they’ve felt happy for me? Or just like always, they would have neglected me like I wasn’t their child? It’s been more than a year since I left home, but they’ve not once tried to contact me, what do I think they would’ve acted like?
I am sure they would’ve denied my love for anyone, given how I am nothing but a shame to them.
Nothing but a lantern that brought shame to their family. Nothing but a useless wolf-less person that doesn’t even deserve anyone’s care or love. Paired with some hundreds of whipping with that wooden stick, I think that would’ve been their reaction if I would’ve brought a man home telling them that I love him.
Feeling the unfamiliar wetness on my cheeks, I involuntarily touched my cheeks, not realizing that I was crying.
Gazing up from my plate, I looked at my friends, who had a concerned expression on their faces, and I couldn’t help but curse myself for letting my emotions go haywire like this. They didn't know what was wrong with me, and my crying like this will make this bad now.
“Alexis, I am sorry, I didn’t mean to,” Shane said, probably already realizing that my parents were a taboo topic that wasn’t to be touched.
“It’s okay. I’ll catch up with you guys later, yeah? I need to help Professor Blake with arranging assignments anyways.” I said, trying to save myself from more awkwardness than I already was.
Walking away from the table before anyone could say something, I stopped beside a tree, leaning my body for support before closing my eyes.
‘I am sorry, I let you down. I know I promised that I won’t cry overthinking useless things, but I couldn’t help it today. I am sorry. It's just- ’ I said to Ariana, choking on my own words as I didn't know what to say and explain my condition to her, who rather than making fun of me, stayed quiet for a few seconds before speaking.
‘It’s okay, sweetheart. Sometimes shedding a few tears lessens the burdens and sorrow of the heart.’ She said, and I couldn’t help but let out a whimper as I felt the emotions that I had buried inside me opening a little bit.
‘I miss them. Even after what they did to me, I miss them. I want them to look into my eyes hold my hand, and just say everything will be fine.’ I said, falling to the ground as my legs gave up.
I just wanted them to tell me that beyond all this werewolf shit, I was their daughter. The daughter that they loved.