Ch. 25：Giving it a try

Chapter-21
ALEXIS'S POV
"Well, I am doing this because as much as I would love to make that shy blush on your face when your front body pressed upon my sturdy chest, that would also give me a great feeling of those soft things, I would still like to give you your privacy at a moment like this and hug you from behind," Blake answered and for a moment, I didn't know what to say anymore.
How should I react to this? Should I be happy that he wasn't bringing up some pity party like he saw me crying and he thought let me help a pitiful girl?
Or should I be angry at him because he was addressing such a thing without a care in the world and did I mention shamelessly?
"Fine, I am calm now. You can leave my hands and free my body since you are clearly not able to enjoy it." I said, rolling my eyes at him.
"Oh, it's okay, sweetheart. Sometimes personal pleasure can be sacrificed for a moment to help a beauty." He replied before bringing me closer to his body and hugging me a little tighter.
Fidgeting my hands out of his grasp, I sighed before trying to break out from his arms.
"Do remind me why did I agree to become your friend after I am free from this tight hold of yours," I said, and was about to apply pressure on his acupressure which will make him leave me. However, before I could do that, he turned me around, making me come face to face as his face was only inches away from mine.
"You agreed to become my friend because you couldn't see my pitiful ass being alone in this hateful world," Blake said, looking me directly in the eyes.
His grey eyes were so beautiful that I always find myself getting lost in the deep pools of them.
"Now, let me tell you something, I will keep telling you again and again until you get it inked in that smart-ass brain of yours," Blake said, my eyes still dancing in the pools of his eyes.
"No matter what happens, I will protect you with whatever I can. Be it my alpha, who according to you wants to exile you, which I am sure is hardly the case, or be it, anyone, around you. I will protect you, okay? No one and I is serious about it, no one is allowed to hurt you. Except me." Blake said, his voice getting low at the end before he gripped my chin between his thumb and index finger.
"That will also depend on if you will let me do you." He said, smiling mischievously now, and only after he said those words did I realize what he was talking about.
"Shut up, Blake. Wait, I got that wrong. Please shut up, professor Blake." I said, glad that I wasn't feeling intoxicated with his scent anymore.
Raising my hands in the air, I brought them towards his hands, hitting onto them forcefully, making him drop his hands with a hissing sound.
"Thanks, but no thanks. I have been good on my own. I don't want to depend on someone now to make my life more complicated than it has already turned with multiple boys entering into it." I said before bending and picking my bag.
I was done with this emotional drama. The more emotional I will become, the more will people find me easy to bully. The more they will think I was nothing but a weak lantern.
I was done with all of this.
Even Blake. He has become my friend today and though I am thankful to him for what he did just now, it doesn't mean I can trust him like he is asking me to.
The people who have always been betrayed by their own family members don't trust other people so easily. Especially not me.
"Hey, hey, Look at me. I know you don't trust me at the moment, but you don't need to cut me off completely. Okay? We can start this slowly and make this friendship work, yeah? Now before it becomes too awkward for both of us, let’s get out of here.” Blake said, and for the first time, I felt like I should believe someone.
My heart wanted to believe this guy, but my brain, on the other hand, was telling me about all the betrayals I have gone through.
‘I think Blake is right, Alexis. You don’t need to jump and give all of yours to him. But you can at least try with this new friendship. I have seen you yearning for real feelings. This is your chance. I don't think there is anything wrong with believing him. Honestly, I always get a positive feeling from this guy. Like he is not the type to betray. Like he needs you as much as you need someone in your life.’ Ariana said, making me nod my head at Blake.
“Let’s go out of here,” I said before he helped me out from the secluded place.
“Have you eaten already? Do you need me to bring you something to eat?” Blake said, looking into my eyes again.
I think he has a fetish for looking into people’s eyes because every time we are talking, I always find him looking into my eyes deeply as if he is trying to find some kind of hidden secret there, which I must tell him someday is completely futile because I am very good at hiding things.
“I have had my lunch already. I think I will be going back to my friends. They must be worried sick after seeing my outbreak like this.” I said, and I don’t know if it was just me, but I saw a flicker of emotions in his eyes that was too complicated for me to understand.
Maybe Ariana was right. There was nothing wrong with giving this new friendship a try. The worse that could turn out from this friendship is if he betrays me, and I think I am already used to betrayals now. One more betrayal won't hurt any different, right? And, if he is indeed how Ariana describes him, then I will get a good friend, which I must mention is also the beta of the strongest pack in the world, which makes him no less strong than a regular Alpha.
Huh... I think my life is taking a good turn for the first time after I became a rogue.